Sometimes I feel like I'm seeing it all at once and it's too much. My heart fills up like a balloon that's about to burst. And then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold on to it. And then it flows through me like rain and I can't feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life.
— American Beauty
For the past few days, everywhere I go, there's something new and inspiring that I feel like I need to capture. But I don't really take the time to grok it in that moment. I usually save my processing for when I'm alone and I curate my photos and write these blurbs. I feel like I could benefit from slowing down and taking each moment in.
I feel a bit like the fly in this picture. My feet are grounded. I don't feel any movement. But little do I know, I'm going places that are beyond my comprehension. I feel the wind rushing by, but it's not really of my own volition.
I was feeling restless yesterday after work so I took the ferry over to Playa del Carmen where I'll be moving next weekend. I figured this would be like a sneak peek of what's to come. Spoiler alert: PDC is busy-busy-busy! I'm really looking forward to moving there next-next week.
I love being on big ships. There's a very unique, low-frequency rumble that is strangely soothing. Freud might say it is a longing to return to the womb. But for me, it's a sense of adventure, mixed with peace and acceptance for whatever the future might bring.
It's the feeling I had when I took the Alaska Marine Highway System ferry for the first time. Little did I know what the future held for me at that time. Northern Lights? Midnight gardening? Dog mushing? Yes please!
Of course, not all of my experiences over the last three years have been enjoyable. But, perhaps, ultimately necessary. I can only expect the same with whatever is to come for me. Wherever this metaphorical ferry is taking me, I feel a sense of adventure, mixed with peace and acceptance of whatever the future might bring. "Life cannot be grasped as a concept; it is known through actual living experience of everyday being." -- The Tao, probably